Getting really real with ourselves….

Do you ever ask yourself WHY you really do something? As in “have a heart to heart with yourself”…. Digging deep down within and just being honest with you, on a few things?

I think we often, WAIT, maybe I should speak for myself here, I think I often assume the best about myself, my intentions and my reason for doing what I do or thinking what I think……

I found myself here just the other night!

It all began with innocent comparison in my mind, Note: comparison is NEVER innocent!  In my mind I was comparing myself to others when it came to a certain subject.

Problem #1: I didn’t catch myself here, in this unwise place of comparison

Which led to Problem #2: I began to find myself comfortable in the Judgment Seat of Christ, judging not only myself but the other people I was comparing myself too.

Which led to Problem #3: I started to condemn myself and let guilt overtake me (not for the comparison. See I had not even realized Problem #1 yet, I had no idea where the “problem” first started) I was condemning myself for not doing what others were doing.

Which honestly led to Problem #4: trying to prove myself to those I was comparing myself too and little did “these people” even know……

………Because it was all in my MIND!

I basically committed 4 sins….in a prettttttttttty short amount of time……

1.       Comparison

2.       Judgment of myself

3.       Judgment of others

4.       Good old fashion pride….

Whoa, whoa, whoa and whoa……

To say I realized in that moment what true grace was all about, is an understatement, I about fell off my chair when I started to write it out on paper (which is often how I work through thoughts swirling around in my brain) and realized how this simple (seemingly innocent thought) turned into a string of SIN, WOW. All I can say is thank you to God for sending His son Jesus to die on a cross for my sins, past, present and future, not because I am even close to perfect, but because of how imperfect I am EVEN when I am “TRYING” my best…

Feel free to write out your “swirlings” (swirling= thoughts in your head) below!

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3 thoughts on “Getting really real with ourselves….

    • No not all honey, guilt is NOT FROM GOD! Once you have confessed your sins to God, asked for His forgiveness you are FORGIVEN (no guilt, no shame) that is what the BLOOD of Christ did for us! Covered our sins, past, present and future. That is why we are SO thankful for Jesus, He saved us from our sin! We aim to be the best we can be, but the GRACE OF GOD, is there when we mess up… HE LOVES YOU SO MUCH AND IS SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!

      • Okay.I do believe that! But sometimes it still hurts to see that person though that I knew I was wrong against and now it is always awequard because we were friends for so long and now we are no anything.So it is still hard not to feel guilty.Does that make any since? I have asked for forgiveness and asked have asked for her forgiveness to but it still isnt right.So what do you do after that point?

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