God’s healing LOVE

Love is one of those words that gets thrown around A LOT, I personally say it a lot, I don’t think twice to throw it out there, especially if the “feeling” is there, like I LOVE payday candy bars, or my heated seats in my car, or the sunshine.   I love the ocean, my friends, my family… But what does LOVE really mean?

 Love [luhv]

1. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

2. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.

3. passion or desire.

4. a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.

5. (used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection, or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love?

Now that I read the definition, do I really consider a pay day candy bar this important? I mean sometimes, I do like them, but probably not THIS much! The one thing that is amazing and pretty clear and straight forward in the Bible is that God (our Father in Heaven) LOVES US. I know I know we have all heard this, not new information Lindsay!

I have heard that LOVE is a choice, makes sense to me (I can choose to LOVE payday candy bars if I want- you may choose to love a snickers candy bar?) but we do have a choice, right?

So we can CHOOSE to believe that God the Father, our perfect Father in Heaven LOVES us AND we can to CHOOSE to receive His love, or we can choose to know that scripture that Tim Tebow paints on his face during football games, have it memorized, even tell others about it, but still hold our hand out to God and not really receive His love.

I know it sounds impractical, but honestly my heart has been so healed by receiving God’s love for me, not for the world, but for me. . It was a process to believe and receive the fact that the Creator of the universe, LOVED ME, after ALL I had done, not only does He love me (AND YOU), but in a tender way, a profound way. He feels a warm personal attachment and deep affection for me as His beloved child, I am His sweetheart. In Zechariah 2:8, God refers to us as the apple of His eye.  (that’s God, the One who created the entire universe) that can be a little hard to wrap your brain around.

I read a few years ago in the Bible that God IS Love. Have you ever sat and really thought about that, I hadn’t the first 35 years of my life, but this summer I started reading this book Captivating and it talked a lot about how a women is made and how she requires and desires love, I believe a man is the same (but I can only speak from a women’s perspective) that our Creator designed us to be LOVED, because He Himself is LOVE, He gives us a choice to choose whether we will 1. Love Him and 2. Let Him Love us.

That’s all I have…. I think it’s important to sit in and think on.. Ask God why He loves you and  listen to what comes to your heart/head, write it down, you will blush!

“Love” have you ever googled it?

This was a few years ago, but I was reading in the Bible where it talks about God being Love. Not just God loving us (which He does, very much), but God actually BEING LOVE, it says in 1 John 4:8 God is Love… I thought “what exactly does that mean?”

How can God BE love? It just didn’t register

So I googled it…. (I mean duh…) what else does one do when perplexed about something!

I am not exactly sure what I googled (maybe “ the meaning of LOVE”) I really can’t remember to be honest, but I found this rather strange article in Time Magazine called the “The Science of Romance” it is a little hard to choke down for various reasons, it gets kinda weird at points, but at the end, after they had gone round and round, wrote 4 pages of scientific studies and research with some of the smartest in the country, here is the end of the article…

“But nothing could convince a person in love that there isn’t something more at work–and the fact is, none of us would want to be convinced. That’s a nut science may never fully crack”

I remember sitting in my bed thinking “SHUT UP” they just explained the science behind romance, relationships, even sex but they couldn’t “crack the nut” regarding LOVE and the next thought that came to my mind was “they can’t explain it, because they don’t know It (capital I) they don’t know HIM, they don’t understand that God who created the universe, created You and I, IS LOVE. No wonder they can’t or even think that anyone will crack the nut of “LOVE” …….

I was dumbfounded… DUMBFOUNDED…. SHOCKED, SPEECHLESS (and for those of you that know me, that is something……) I knew that God existed ever since I was 14 years old, even before that but it wasn’t until I was 14 that I experienced God at church camp up at Lake Erie, in Ohio… I remember….. and now at 35 years old, God is teaching me that He first wants me to LOVE HIM… you see this on bumper stickers “Love God, Love People” because Jesus said this is the greatest commandment of all! But do we REALLY know how to LOVE God? I think we tend to go do things for God and love people, because it is easier, people are right here, we can see them, somewhere in life we were loved by someone and so we know how to love people, but do we really know how to love Love Himself?

I don’t know the answer; it is what God is asking me, so I thought I would write about it. I do think it is a good question to ask God for yourself, do I know how to love You and do I know how to receive Your LOVE, receive YOU who is LOVE….. I am not talking about salvation; I am talking about something deeper, more intimate. a real loving relationship!

And do we try to substitute that Love that we should get and receive ONLY from God with people? Marriage is an expression of God’s love towards us; it was never meant to be a replacement!

I don’t know the answer….. I think it’s a good question for all of us..

Getting really real with ourselves….

Do you ever ask yourself WHY you really do something? As in “have a heart to heart with yourself”…. Digging deep down within and just being honest with you, on a few things?

I think we often, WAIT, maybe I should speak for myself here, I think I often assume the best about myself, my intentions and my reason for doing what I do or thinking what I think……

I found myself here just the other night!

It all began with innocent comparison in my mind, Note: comparison is NEVER innocent!  In my mind I was comparing myself to others when it came to a certain subject.

Problem #1: I didn’t catch myself here, in this unwise place of comparison

Which led to Problem #2: I began to find myself comfortable in the Judgment Seat of Christ, judging not only myself but the other people I was comparing myself too.

Which led to Problem #3: I started to condemn myself and let guilt overtake me (not for the comparison. See I had not even realized Problem #1 yet, I had no idea where the “problem” first started) I was condemning myself for not doing what others were doing.

Which honestly led to Problem #4: trying to prove myself to those I was comparing myself too and little did “these people” even know……

………Because it was all in my MIND!

I basically committed 4 sins….in a prettttttttttty short amount of time……

1.       Comparison

2.       Judgment of myself

3.       Judgment of others

4.       Good old fashion pride….

Whoa, whoa, whoa and whoa……

To say I realized in that moment what true grace was all about, is an understatement, I about fell off my chair when I started to write it out on paper (which is often how I work through thoughts swirling around in my brain) and realized how this simple (seemingly innocent thought) turned into a string of SIN, WOW. All I can say is thank you to God for sending His son Jesus to die on a cross for my sins, past, present and future, not because I am even close to perfect, but because of how imperfect I am EVEN when I am “TRYING” my best…

Feel free to write out your “swirlings” (swirling= thoughts in your head) below!

no where to get too

It’s a journey not a destination…..I know we all know this! I know I have heard this exact term in sermons, books, and out of the mouths of those I respect, but I don’t know that it really ever, took root, SUNK in until today, in the parking lot, at a Publix grocery store. I am not exactly sure why more than one of my God moments in the past few weeks has been in the parking lot of a Publix grocery store, but that is beside the point.

The point is! There is actually nowhere to GET.

What I mean by this is that there is no where to get and then things will be ok, there is no where to get and then I will be WHERE I am supposed to be….. I am supposed to be on a journey, I looked up the definition of journey and this is what it said “passage or progress from one stage to another”……. I am supposed to be right where I am at this very moment in time, whether a valley (a sad time in life) or a mountain top (a time of great JOY) wherever you are right now, is exactly where you are supposed to be on the journey… Some will tell you “Life isn’t fair” I don’t personally know if that is right or wrong, but I do know that we ALL travel through our share of valleys as well as up to our share of mountain tops….I know that I know God has a purpose for both, what I don’t know is WHY (well I have some theories, but we are getting off topic) I don’t know WHY everything happens the way it does and I believe it is not for me to know. The Bible says in the book of Isaiah Chapter 55 Verse 8….. “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD.” So we may never know the WHY…. All I know is when I seek God first; He then reveals what is next. Don’t get me wrong I am constantly “bugging Him” about what is next Lord “what is next” I beg to know. I have heard Him clearly tell me “don’t miss today Lindsay and trust me for tomorrow”…. The Bible says in the book of Matthew Chapter 6 Verse 34 “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own” the Bible also says in the book of Proverbs Chapter 3 Verses 5 &6 “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight”

Pretty practical information in the Bible! It makes sense…. So let Go and Ask God…. HE WILL direct your steps!!!

Hello world!

so, this Blog…..it is going to be about what I have learned and what I am still learning about life, love and the pursuit!  the pursuit of what??? Well, that is up to you! Whatever you are pursuing! For me, that is my relationship with the Creator of Everything, who better to pursue right? I mean let’s REALLY take a sec to think about it….  If God did create it all, everything, everyone, ALL things, then why would we waste our time reading, listening or seeking anything else. You may think that is a “little much”…..but is it??…. I mean seriously… I spent 31 years of my life pursing EVERYTHING else, money, popularity, FUN, success, love, friendship, the right parties, the right clothes, the right job, I was literally bouncing around looking for something, but I had no idea I was looking for anything, I just thought it was life……. I would talk about it a lot, “the meaning of life” I would say to my friend on the porch “is this it, is this what we are suppose to be doing???”…I am not going to lie, it was fun, BUT it never satisfied me. I always thought there must be more—– or something I am missing in life??? So at 29 I decided it was time for a change.. I knew there was more to life and I thought I was just in the wrong location, so I moved to Atlanta- just thought it would be cool- nothing much more than that…… After I found the most perfect place to live in the most perfect trendy area, I was invited to all the most fancy of events in town and met a lot of  “mover and shaker” types – cool people–smart– trendy– I found myself heartbroken just 4 months later, ALL ALONE crying in my bed. Crying out to a God???? Please understand, God was this big person in the sky who was busy dealing with MUCH bigger issues than my little life…. I believed in Him, if you would have asked me, but that was about it… I didn’t even know, but I was SO alone, I had no one else to cry too… so what the heck….

That is when it all started….. my relationship with God… everything started to change…. everything… it has been 5 years… it took me about 2 years of exploring around to really start to understand and Love who God really was, but that faithful day in my loft in Midtown, in my bed, crying so hard I could hardly breathe, God answered me…. “I am right here”….