God is writing the story of our lives!

I never really thought that putting down the pencil would be so hard yet so beautiful at the very same time. I knew what I meant when I named my blog, I knew it meant releasing control of my life, just like it says at the top, under the heading, a moment by moment surrender to the One who created it all! Moment by moment, meaning at each moment surrendering to what I believe God wants even if it was not exactly what I want, or what I would do! My favorite verse in the Bible is “Trust in the Lord with ALL of your heart, lean not on your own understanding, but in ALL your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.” Surrendering and trusting that even if it doesn’t make sense, it is God and He created the world, so I would rather be in His will, than my own.writing450

Putting my pencil, my story, my future in His hands, trusting ONLY HE can write the best selling story of my life. It’s never a best seller without pain but the beautiful part is a best seller usually always ends up with a heartwarming ending and I am confident that my God, He works ALL things together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. I know I LOVE Him more than anything and am called by name, for His purpose.

He will work these things as well for my good and His glory.

God is God, when I sit and really dwell in that; I see how real He is. I see that He is good, I am beyond thankful for His guidance even if it hurts, and it has hurt lately. I am beyond grateful that He came to set the captives free and I am one of them, I am beyond grateful that He has plans to prosper me, not to harm me, to give me hope and a future, that He is Peace, He gives wisdom freely without measure and that He will work things out in us for a purpose, a purpose to share those stories of freedom with others and help set them free from the yoke of bondage. He is a Redeemer, He is a Rock, He is Hope, He is worthy of our trust and He is my Perfect Father, He teaches, He preaches, He loves and He adores.

My heart is strengthened by the pain of the past two events in my life, He is strong in our weakness and it is kind of amazing! I feel this right now, I feel that He is holding me and that I am stronger than I was before, because I KNOW who holds me through it all, I know who knows my heart, I know who knows my pain and I know who tells me that He is proud of me. That is my Father in Heaven. He truly is before ALL things and in Him all things hold together and I am glad He is writing my story, because He writes the best stories.

God’s healing LOVE

Love is one of those words that gets thrown around A LOT, I personally say it a lot, I don’t think twice to throw it out there, especially if the “feeling” is there, like I LOVE payday candy bars, or my heated seats in my car, or the sunshine.   I love the ocean, my friends, my family… But what does LOVE really mean?

 Love [luhv]

1. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

2. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.

3. passion or desire.

4. a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.

5. (used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection, or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love?

Now that I read the definition, do I really consider a pay day candy bar this important? I mean sometimes, I do like them, but probably not THIS much! The one thing that is amazing and pretty clear and straight forward in the Bible is that God (our Father in Heaven) LOVES US. I know I know we have all heard this, not new information Lindsay!

I have heard that LOVE is a choice, makes sense to me (I can choose to LOVE payday candy bars if I want- you may choose to love a snickers candy bar?) but we do have a choice, right?

So we can CHOOSE to believe that God the Father, our perfect Father in Heaven LOVES us AND we can to CHOOSE to receive His love, or we can choose to know that scripture that Tim Tebow paints on his face during football games, have it memorized, even tell others about it, but still hold our hand out to God and not really receive His love.

I know it sounds impractical, but honestly my heart has been so healed by receiving God’s love for me, not for the world, but for me. . It was a process to believe and receive the fact that the Creator of the universe, LOVED ME, after ALL I had done, not only does He love me (AND YOU), but in a tender way, a profound way. He feels a warm personal attachment and deep affection for me as His beloved child, I am His sweetheart. In Zechariah 2:8, God refers to us as the apple of His eye.  (that’s God, the One who created the entire universe) that can be a little hard to wrap your brain around.

I read a few years ago in the Bible that God IS Love. Have you ever sat and really thought about that, I hadn’t the first 35 years of my life, but this summer I started reading this book Captivating and it talked a lot about how a women is made and how she requires and desires love, I believe a man is the same (but I can only speak from a women’s perspective) that our Creator designed us to be LOVED, because He Himself is LOVE, He gives us a choice to choose whether we will 1. Love Him and 2. Let Him Love us.

That’s all I have…. I think it’s important to sit in and think on.. Ask God why He loves you and  listen to what comes to your heart/head, write it down, you will blush!

Joy, Peace and mini Meltdowns

2 things you can’t fake are Joy and Peace

“Joy looks above and not ahead, Joy is a deep seated assurance that He is in control and admission we are not”, said by my dear friend Sarah. I personally hate when I lose my Joy because it takes my Peace right along with it. Thinking for a time that I AM IN CONTROL, which causes major stress, fear and worry, that “IT” whatever the “it” is depends on ME!!!!

I use to FEAR my suffering; truly, I was waiting for the other shoe to drop in just about every situation. I was trying to CONTROL with everything I had, for protection, because of fear, it is an ugly cycle. It still happens, it actually happened yesterday!  I do seem to be quicker these days, to re focus and remember who is in control, who I can depend on, who wants me to depend on Him.

Being very honest with you I am currently walking through two of my biggest fears in this very season of life, I have had my control, protection, fear cycle meltdowns a lot more lately than I care to admit. BUT I was reminded this morning that God really does know the END from the BEGINNING… and He is teaching me to let go, trust Him, moment by moment and when I grip to things a little too tightly He gently reminds me, He has got “THIS”! Well in my case, “He has got those

Good Part:  The Bible says 365 times in one form or fashion “Do NOT Fear”.. I really try to take this literally, the Bible is God’s Word, from God, the God who created the universe, He doesn’t say do not fear, except in that situation, He says, DO NOT FEAR. (period)

I believe Joy and Peace are true gifts from God, I believe Joy and Peace are Jesus Himself, in the form of God’s Holy Spirit that dwells within us…

Let’s discuss Peace!

I believe Jesus is Peace because of what the Bible records:

1.       In the book of Isaiah it is said that “For a child will be born to us, a son will be given to us; And the government will rest on His shoulders; And His name will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Eternal Father, Prince of Peace. {Is 9:6}

2.       In the book of John, Jesus says “Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful”

{John 14:27}. When Jesus said, Peace I leave with you, He was referring to the Holy Spirit of God who dwells within us, who is God who is Jesus!

Therefore, invite Jesus not only into your life, but also into each and every situation! I invited Jesus into my life a while back, but just yesterday I was living, thinking and reacting to a situation like Jesus was nowhere to be found. Like He had no idea, like it was all up to me and I was a mess to say the least.

When I finally humbled myself and prayed, asked God to help me, HE DID. It was that simple, did the situation change, no! The circumstance I was so upset about, no, to be honest, it didn’t change one bit, but my heart did, I had turned back towards my Peace, back towards my Lord and Savior, my Jesus.

That verse in scripture that talks about the Peace that surpasses all understanding was always something I would pray for all those around me who were in a season of suffering, but now that I face my own valley, my own season of suffering, my own very fear, I feel and have felt “that” very peace that truly does NOT make sense. The circumstance doesn’t change, but something inside of me does!

If I think about it, it actually seems unreal to me. I know it is NOT of me, I know how I usually react to some of the very situations going on in my life right now and this peace, this is not me, it is something in me, it is Jesus, the Holy Spirit of God. I struggled at first wanting to sit in my fear, my sadness, my potential despair, I still do sometimes, like doing that was going to change the circumstance or something!

I lived without much peace or joy most of my life, I basically wondered why me in every trial and tribulation that came my way.. But no more. If it’s truly up to me to allow Jesus to be JOY and Peace in and through me, then I will, even if I slip up from time to time.

He promises He will walk with us; He will NOT leave us or forsake us! {Is. 43:2, Psalm 23:4, Hebrews 13:5}

Whether you believe in Jesus or not you will endure suffering on THIS earth, but with Jesus you will have PEACE.

Joy (Himself) Jesus helps us to endure the trail. BUT you have to receive the Joy, don’t try to muster it up, it’s Jesus just simply humble yourself and turn back towards Him, your Peace and your Joy!

Thoughts?

Those sometimes dreaded words “it’s just not the right time”

“Timing is everything”

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh……

You always hear that and usually when you do you are in the middle of a situation that you really want to kindly smack the person who says it to you!
But then you find yourself on the other side of “the dreaded phrase” as you comfort a friend on a situation and you hear it coming out of your mouth.
Always easier to “say” than to “hear” but either way it is TRUE…. See King Solomon, who was said to be the wisest man who ever lived talks about this in the book of Ecclesiastes in the Bible in the 3rd chapter:
He says “There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under the heavens:
· A time to be born and a time to die

· A time to plant and a time to pluck up which is planted

· A time to kill and a time to heal

· A time to tear down and a time to build up

· A time to weep and a time to laugh

· A time to mourn and a time to dance

· A time to throw stones and a time to gather stones

· A time to embrace and a time to shun embracing

· A time to search and a time to give up as lost

· A time to keep and a time to throw away

· A time to tear apart and a time to sew together

· A time to be silent and a time to speak

· A time to love and a time to hate

· A time for war and a time for peace”

The Bible says that God has made everything appropriate (some versions of the Bible use the word beautiful instead of appropriate) in it’s time. He has also set eternity in their heart, yet so that man will not find out the work which God has done from the beginning even to the end.
God is working on our behalf as we wait on Him; I stick close to the scripture from Isaiah, chapter 40, verse 31 (this is out of the AMP)
“But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired.
As we wait, let’s mount up near God, let’s hope, expect, look and trust in HIM. Let’s wait expectantly for Him for show up in a big way so that we can tell the story to many, tell a story that was NO OTHER THAN GOD who made “that” happen and all in the most perfect timing!
What is it that you are waiting for? We are all usually waiting on something!

The Father’s Love

To be very honest with you, God usually teaches me what I am writing about, it may be after I write about what ever it is… seems kinda strange to me, but His ways are higher than my ways, and I don’t need to wonder or worry about why, I just need to simply TRUST…
I consider Father God to be like a father to me, I often ask Him advice on every day matters, I go to Him when I am sad and need comforted, I thank Him for all sweet things He does for me and I know no matter what, He is often trying to teach me, guide me, help me to become who He knows I can be.

With all of this said, I sometimes still defy Him, go against what I kinda know He wants me to do and I end up throwing a temper tantrum, like as in crying and screaming (not on the ground but in my heart and sometimes in public). Then I find my way back to His loving arms crying my heart out, as He comforts me, encourages me and undoubtedly reassures me that He loves me no matter what.
He reassures me that He does know best… That I can count on Him, that I can ultimately TRUST Him. The word TRUST is over used a bit, in my mind anyway, but I am kind of the queen of over using words, I mean anyone who knows me knows this about me. So maybe it is my fault, maybe I didn’t really know or fully understand what the word TRUST really meant. Honestly I think I throw it around a lot, maybe I need to stop doing that, either way I know that God taught me a valuable lesson yesterday amongst all my tears and pain, He taught me that He has got me and I need to let go. I need to STOP trying to figure everything out, I need to stay in today, see what He has for me today and not run ahead inside of my head……
I realize a lot of my blogs are written about this similar subject, but isn’t this the journey we are on? As followers of Christ learning to surrender IT ALL to HIM…… Let Him lead our way, direct our path, order our steps. I believe God wants deeper surrender from all of us and I am not sure if we can ever get there fully until Jesus returns and those of us who believe go to heaven. But I do believe that it is part of our journey here on earth. Saved to Surrendered! And sometimes it’s kinda painful, but ALWAYS JOY on the other side…….
Let me know your thoughts…..