God is writing the story of our lives!

I never really thought that putting down the pencil would be so hard yet so beautiful at the very same time. I knew what I meant when I named my blog, I knew it meant releasing control of my life, just like it says at the top, under the heading, a moment by moment surrender to the One who created it all! Moment by moment, meaning at each moment surrendering to what I believe God wants even if it was not exactly what I want, or what I would do! My favorite verse in the Bible is “Trust in the Lord with ALL of your heart, lean not on your own understanding, but in ALL your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.” Surrendering and trusting that even if it doesn’t make sense, it is God and He created the world, so I would rather be in His will, than my own.writing450

Putting my pencil, my story, my future in His hands, trusting ONLY HE can write the best selling story of my life. It’s never a best seller without pain but the beautiful part is a best seller usually always ends up with a heartwarming ending and I am confident that my God, He works ALL things together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. I know I LOVE Him more than anything and am called by name, for His purpose.

He will work these things as well for my good and His glory.

God is God, when I sit and really dwell in that; I see how real He is. I see that He is good, I am beyond thankful for His guidance even if it hurts, and it has hurt lately. I am beyond grateful that He came to set the captives free and I am one of them, I am beyond grateful that He has plans to prosper me, not to harm me, to give me hope and a future, that He is Peace, He gives wisdom freely without measure and that He will work things out in us for a purpose, a purpose to share those stories of freedom with others and help set them free from the yoke of bondage. He is a Redeemer, He is a Rock, He is Hope, He is worthy of our trust and He is my Perfect Father, He teaches, He preaches, He loves and He adores.

My heart is strengthened by the pain of the past two events in my life, He is strong in our weakness and it is kind of amazing! I feel this right now, I feel that He is holding me and that I am stronger than I was before, because I KNOW who holds me through it all, I know who knows my heart, I know who knows my pain and I know who tells me that He is proud of me. That is my Father in Heaven. He truly is before ALL things and in Him all things hold together and I am glad He is writing my story, because He writes the best stories.

Joy, Peace and mini Meltdowns

2 things you can’t fake are Joy and Peace

“Joy looks above and not ahead, Joy is a deep seated assurance that He is in control and admission we are not”, said by my dear friend Sarah. I personally hate when I lose my Joy because it takes my Peace right along with it. Thinking for a time that I AM IN CONTROL, which causes major stress, fear and worry, that “IT” whatever the “it” is depends on ME!!!!

I use to FEAR my suffering; truly, I was waiting for the other shoe to drop in just about every situation. I was trying to CONTROL with everything I had, for protection, because of fear, it is an ugly cycle. It still happens, it actually happened yesterday!  I do seem to be quicker these days, to re focus and remember who is in control, who I can depend on, who wants me to depend on Him.

Being very honest with you I am currently walking through two of my biggest fears in this very season of life, I have had my control, protection, fear cycle meltdowns a lot more lately than I care to admit. BUT I was reminded this morning that God really does know the END from the BEGINNING… and He is teaching me to let go, trust Him, moment by moment and when I grip to things a little too tightly He gently reminds me, He has got “THIS”! Well in my case, “He has got those

Good Part:  The Bible says 365 times in one form or fashion “Do NOT Fear”.. I really try to take this literally, the Bible is God’s Word, from God, the God who created the universe, He doesn’t say do not fear, except in that situation, He says, DO NOT FEAR. (period)

I believe Joy and Peace are true gifts from God, I believe Joy and Peace are Jesus Himself, in the form of God’s Holy Spirit that dwells within us…

Let’s discuss Peace!

I believe Jesus is Peace because of what the Bible records:

1.       In the book of Isaiah it is said that “For a child will be born to us, a son will be given to us; And the government will rest on His shoulders; And His name will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Eternal Father, Prince of Peace. {Is 9:6}

2.       In the book of John, Jesus says “Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful”

{John 14:27}. When Jesus said, Peace I leave with you, He was referring to the Holy Spirit of God who dwells within us, who is God who is Jesus!

Therefore, invite Jesus not only into your life, but also into each and every situation! I invited Jesus into my life a while back, but just yesterday I was living, thinking and reacting to a situation like Jesus was nowhere to be found. Like He had no idea, like it was all up to me and I was a mess to say the least.

When I finally humbled myself and prayed, asked God to help me, HE DID. It was that simple, did the situation change, no! The circumstance I was so upset about, no, to be honest, it didn’t change one bit, but my heart did, I had turned back towards my Peace, back towards my Lord and Savior, my Jesus.

That verse in scripture that talks about the Peace that surpasses all understanding was always something I would pray for all those around me who were in a season of suffering, but now that I face my own valley, my own season of suffering, my own very fear, I feel and have felt “that” very peace that truly does NOT make sense. The circumstance doesn’t change, but something inside of me does!

If I think about it, it actually seems unreal to me. I know it is NOT of me, I know how I usually react to some of the very situations going on in my life right now and this peace, this is not me, it is something in me, it is Jesus, the Holy Spirit of God. I struggled at first wanting to sit in my fear, my sadness, my potential despair, I still do sometimes, like doing that was going to change the circumstance or something!

I lived without much peace or joy most of my life, I basically wondered why me in every trial and tribulation that came my way.. But no more. If it’s truly up to me to allow Jesus to be JOY and Peace in and through me, then I will, even if I slip up from time to time.

He promises He will walk with us; He will NOT leave us or forsake us! {Is. 43:2, Psalm 23:4, Hebrews 13:5}

Whether you believe in Jesus or not you will endure suffering on THIS earth, but with Jesus you will have PEACE.

Joy (Himself) Jesus helps us to endure the trail. BUT you have to receive the Joy, don’t try to muster it up, it’s Jesus just simply humble yourself and turn back towards Him, your Peace and your Joy!

Thoughts?

Joy in Suffering! huh?

What is JOY anyway and why would God tell us in the book of James to “Consider it a sheer gift, when tests and challenges come at us from all sides?” [MSG]

The NIV says it like this….  “Consider it PURE JOY whenever you face trails of many kinds”

I have written a lot in the recent weeks about things such as worry, wonder, trust, staying in the moment, you name it I have been dealing with it and writing about it!  Then I went to a retreat this past weekend with a dear friend of mine in ministry Sarah Ott, a very anointed teacher of God’s divinely penned Word! She is the kind of Bible teacher that after the first time I heard her, I wanted to go home, stay up all night and read the Bible, because I wanted to know what she knew, I wanted to know WHO she knew that gave her such peace and confidence in this life. A life that is often unpredictable and sometimes very painful! This, my friends, is a sign of a teacher appointed by God Himself!

I signed up for this retreat 3 months ago, at that time life had its questions, but nothing too overwhelming that I couldn’t “figure out” or work through with a little prayer, a little counseling and some encouragement from friends!

In the past 3 weeks, I have come upon a different time in my life, when honestly some of my biggest fears in life came to stare me right in the face.

All of this would have been completely paralyzing to me if God Himself had not brought me to a place of TRUST and PEACE in HIM….  It is Him in me, not me… I couldn’t do it myself; I could not face all of this myself….. Which brings me to what I learned this past weekend.

Suffering comes in all kinds of packages, nothing is too small.  As Sarah said, a paper cut is a paper cut when it is not your finger, but when it is your finger, it hurts. At the same time nothing is too big for our God to handle, either! We should not compare our sufferings (or our blessings for that matter), we simply must endure our trials with the confidence that God is in control, not matter what.

Joy does not consider circumstance, it is not something to be mustered up, it is actually someone who dwells within us, who rises up within us (if in fact you have asked Jesus into your life, if you believe He came to set you free from your sins) then Jesus himself, in the form of a spirit, the Holy Spirit lives inside of you! And Jesus Himself is the source of Joy even in our suffering.

What I learned was Joy is to not worry, not to try to figure it out; we are not ultimately in control. Joy looks above and not ahead, Joy is a deep seated assurance that He is in control and admission you are not!

Sarah talked about when you are enveloped by a trial, pain, to first, give joy an opportunity, see it as an option, as a choice, not a feeling such as happiness, which comes and goes with good and bad circumstances, but to consider, joy, which is a confidence that God is sovereign and able to work ALL things for good!

Joy is not denial of fact, or pain, or suffering, it’s not putting your head in the sand and pretending what is going on is not going on, Joy admits the circumstances but sees Jesus in and through it.

Consider Joy, is considering Jesus (Hebrews 12:3), considering He to be present in your circumstance, knowing it is impossible to consider Joy in many painful, gut wrenching circumstances but instead to know that we can rest in Him and He will do it, do Joy, be Joy in us…. if it looks painful it may be painful to walk through but consider Him to be present, to walk with you, as it says in Hebrews “fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, Who [Jesus] for the joy set before Him endured the cross!” the cross was painful, very painful I imagine, but He walked through it, He endured it because it was the will of the Father (Father God) and it was for us. So we would not have to go through anything alone, but we would have the Holy God of the universe, with us through it all.

There is so much more that was revealed this past weekend, so I will write a Part 2 of Consider it Joy soon!

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