The Bible says, behold God. Behold God; I passed by it in my reading, not thinking much of it. Then I was praying and asking God what I should write about, I felt Him tell me write on Behold. I am thinking, how I am going to write an entire blog on Behold. I don’t even know what it means.

So of course I looked it up in the Merriam-Webster

Behold: to perceive through sight or apprehension (to comprehend), to gaze upon.

I thought how do I perceive or begin to comprehend God?

I want too, I have at times, but I wasn’t “feeling” it, ya know…..

I read on down a little bit in Isaiah 40 and was kind of shocked at what I found…. I noted some of the compelling thoughts from the prophet Isaiah on the magnificence of God; I asked a friend who is very gifted seeing the big picture of the situation or person in the Bible to tell me more about Isaiah and his story. He said he lived during the reign of 4 kings including Hezekiah the King of Judah. During his reign the King of Assyria came up against God’s people and proudly said that he would defeat them like they did every other nation. Hezekiah and Isaiah humbled themselves and God sent the Angel of the Lord and struck down thousands of the soldiers that came up against God’s people. God’s people did nothing. Isaiah prophesied that God would do this great work! Also, Isaiah prophesied often about Jesus coming much later!

Read below what Isaiah said about God, read slowly, and really think on each one, sometimes I have to stop and remember who God really is! (All Scripture in BOLD comes from Isaiah 40)

Who has measured the waters in the hollow of his hand?

Who has held the dust of the earth in a basket, or weighed the mountains on the scales and the hills in a balance?

13 Who can fathom the Spirit of the Lord, or instruct the Lord as his counselor?

14 Whom did the Lord consult to enlighten him, and who taught him the right way?

Who was it that taught him knowledge, or showed him the path of understanding?

18 With whom, then, will you compare God?

21 Do you not know? Have you not heard? Has it not been told you from the beginning? Have you not understood since the earth was founded?

22 He sits enthroned above the circle of the earth, and its people are like grasshoppers. He stretches out the heavens like a canopy, and spreads them out like a tent to live in.

23 He brings princes to naught and reduces the rulers of this world to nothing.

25 “To whom will you compare me? Or who is my equal?” says the Holy One.

26 Lift up your eyes and look to the heavens: Who created all these? He who brings out the starry host one by one and calls forth each of them by name. Because of his great power and mighty strength, not one of them is missing.

28 Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.

29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

When I read that, slowly, out loud, I start to begin to understand what the Bible means by Behold, gaze upon with awe and wonder. It gives me a place to start when life is crazy and I remember what is instructed in the Bible, Be still and KNOW that GOD IS GOD.

If He really did create everything, is there anything more important? Is there anything better to seek, read, learn about and gaze upon?

Oh ps. I loved how Isaiah called us grasshoppers; there is no other reason for the title except it made me laugh!


The word ‘unforgivenss’ is not in the dictionary

I think that is weird, why wouldn’t it be in the dictionary? When you look up the word unforgivess in the Merriam Webster is says “there is no official word for unforgiveness” which I just found strange, because I think most of us well meaning, loving, lovable, kind people walk around with unforgivness in our heart all the time and it just eats at our  soul without us really even knowing.

I discovered this first when I had unforgivness in my heart since childhood about someone close to me that hurt me (not meaning too) but did and very deeply.  Truly it had affected my life in every way I can think of, from physical illness, to emotional illness, leading me almost to cause harm to myself.

It wasn’t what happened that made me so (for lack of a better term) “ill”, it was the unforgiveness I carried around for the next 25 years that caused the illness of my body and my emotions. It was a lack of understanding that people make mistakes, well meaning, loving people, just make mistakes in life. This person’s intent was not to harm me, this person actually loves me very much, but I couldn’t see that, because the unforgivness had blinded me with bitterness and resentment that I could not see past. The truth is that person, never knew, and still probably doesn’t know how hurt I was, because “it” the situation had nothing to do with me, even though it affected me in ways I can’t even explain on this little blog entry.

Once I understood how Jesus came to earth, to show us the character of God, then to take on the sins (or the mistakes) of the world (the world, meaning me, because I am one of us in this world and so are you) Jesus came to die for me (and you) for my mistakes (and your mistakes) and the mistakes of those who hurt both, me and you!


Once I let myself see my mistakes, they actually ran through my head like an old time movie playing in the screen of my eyes.  It was horrific, I have to be honest. I think I wanted to throw up, I know tears (and probably snot) where streaming down my face, as I saw all the ways I made mistakes, the ways I accidentally hurt people, they ways I even knowingly hurt people out of my own anger and pain. I suddenly understood the sacrifice that Jesus made by hanging on that cross until His death, He died so I could be forgiven of all my mistakes (past, present and future). The next thing that popped into my head was, Lindsay, Jesus also died for the mistakes of that person who hurt you so deeply. It’s time to forgive them!

It is too long to continue this story, but there is more! The journey of forgiveness in my life has freed ME, I didn’t say THEM, I said ME from such pain, sorrow, guilt and gripping fear. I could write a book on this, because it changed my whole life once I was able to see that Jesus died for me, for my “mistakes” little and BIG, He also died for the mistakes of those who hurt me and once I understood that and forgave those people, my life changed in a dramatic way!

I hope you will think about this, ask God, He will answer, ask Him who you need to forgive! Then even though it doesn’t “feel” fair to forgive for what they did to you, think about what our mistakes did to Jesus! Feelings are not always true, do as God asks and forgive as you have been forgiven. I promise, you will be FREE if you do!

I wrote a blog post a few months ago with some help on the actual process of forgiving see here!

“Love” have you ever googled it?

This was a few years ago, but I was reading in the Bible where it talks about God being Love. Not just God loving us (which He does, very much), but God actually BEING LOVE, it says in 1 John 4:8 God is Love… I thought “what exactly does that mean?”

How can God BE love? It just didn’t register

So I googled it…. (I mean duh…) what else does one do when perplexed about something!

I am not exactly sure what I googled (maybe “ the meaning of LOVE”) I really can’t remember to be honest, but I found this rather strange article in Time Magazine called the “The Science of Romance” it is a little hard to choke down for various reasons, it gets kinda weird at points, but at the end, after they had gone round and round, wrote 4 pages of scientific studies and research with some of the smartest in the country, here is the end of the article…

“But nothing could convince a person in love that there isn’t something more at work–and the fact is, none of us would want to be convinced. That’s a nut science may never fully crack”

I remember sitting in my bed thinking “SHUT UP” they just explained the science behind romance, relationships, even sex but they couldn’t “crack the nut” regarding LOVE and the next thought that came to my mind was “they can’t explain it, because they don’t know It (capital I) they don’t know HIM, they don’t understand that God who created the universe, created You and I, IS LOVE. No wonder they can’t or even think that anyone will crack the nut of “LOVE” …….

I was dumbfounded… DUMBFOUNDED…. SHOCKED, SPEECHLESS (and for those of you that know me, that is something……) I knew that God existed ever since I was 14 years old, even before that but it wasn’t until I was 14 that I experienced God at church camp up at Lake Erie, in Ohio… I remember….. and now at 35 years old, God is teaching me that He first wants me to LOVE HIM… you see this on bumper stickers “Love God, Love People” because Jesus said this is the greatest commandment of all! But do we REALLY know how to LOVE God? I think we tend to go do things for God and love people, because it is easier, people are right here, we can see them, somewhere in life we were loved by someone and so we know how to love people, but do we really know how to love Love Himself?

I don’t know the answer; it is what God is asking me, so I thought I would write about it. I do think it is a good question to ask God for yourself, do I know how to love You and do I know how to receive Your LOVE, receive YOU who is LOVE….. I am not talking about salvation; I am talking about something deeper, more intimate. a real loving relationship!

And do we try to substitute that Love that we should get and receive ONLY from God with people? Marriage is an expression of God’s love towards us; it was never meant to be a replacement!

I don’t know the answer….. I think it’s a good question for all of us..

Joy in Suffering! huh?

What is JOY anyway and why would God tell us in the book of James to “Consider it a sheer gift, when tests and challenges come at us from all sides?” [MSG]

The NIV says it like this….  “Consider it PURE JOY whenever you face trails of many kinds”

I have written a lot in the recent weeks about things such as worry, wonder, trust, staying in the moment, you name it I have been dealing with it and writing about it!  Then I went to a retreat this past weekend with a dear friend of mine in ministry Sarah Ott, a very anointed teacher of God’s divinely penned Word! She is the kind of Bible teacher that after the first time I heard her, I wanted to go home, stay up all night and read the Bible, because I wanted to know what she knew, I wanted to know WHO she knew that gave her such peace and confidence in this life. A life that is often unpredictable and sometimes very painful! This, my friends, is a sign of a teacher appointed by God Himself!

I signed up for this retreat 3 months ago, at that time life had its questions, but nothing too overwhelming that I couldn’t “figure out” or work through with a little prayer, a little counseling and some encouragement from friends!

In the past 3 weeks, I have come upon a different time in my life, when honestly some of my biggest fears in life came to stare me right in the face.

All of this would have been completely paralyzing to me if God Himself had not brought me to a place of TRUST and PEACE in HIM….  It is Him in me, not me… I couldn’t do it myself; I could not face all of this myself….. Which brings me to what I learned this past weekend.

Suffering comes in all kinds of packages, nothing is too small.  As Sarah said, a paper cut is a paper cut when it is not your finger, but when it is your finger, it hurts. At the same time nothing is too big for our God to handle, either! We should not compare our sufferings (or our blessings for that matter), we simply must endure our trials with the confidence that God is in control, not matter what.

Joy does not consider circumstance, it is not something to be mustered up, it is actually someone who dwells within us, who rises up within us (if in fact you have asked Jesus into your life, if you believe He came to set you free from your sins) then Jesus himself, in the form of a spirit, the Holy Spirit lives inside of you! And Jesus Himself is the source of Joy even in our suffering.

What I learned was Joy is to not worry, not to try to figure it out; we are not ultimately in control. Joy looks above and not ahead, Joy is a deep seated assurance that He is in control and admission you are not!

Sarah talked about when you are enveloped by a trial, pain, to first, give joy an opportunity, see it as an option, as a choice, not a feeling such as happiness, which comes and goes with good and bad circumstances, but to consider, joy, which is a confidence that God is sovereign and able to work ALL things for good!

Joy is not denial of fact, or pain, or suffering, it’s not putting your head in the sand and pretending what is going on is not going on, Joy admits the circumstances but sees Jesus in and through it.

Consider Joy, is considering Jesus (Hebrews 12:3), considering He to be present in your circumstance, knowing it is impossible to consider Joy in many painful, gut wrenching circumstances but instead to know that we can rest in Him and He will do it, do Joy, be Joy in us…. if it looks painful it may be painful to walk through but consider Him to be present, to walk with you, as it says in Hebrews “fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, Who [Jesus] for the joy set before Him endured the cross!” the cross was painful, very painful I imagine, but He walked through it, He endured it because it was the will of the Father (Father God) and it was for us. So we would not have to go through anything alone, but we would have the Holy God of the universe, with us through it all.

There is so much more that was revealed this past weekend, so I will write a Part 2 of Consider it Joy soon!

For more information on Establish Her ministry, born out of the scripture 1 Peter 5:10 that says “after you have suffered a little while, the God of ALL grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Himself perfect, confirm, strength and establish you!”

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Getting really real with ourselves….

Do you ever ask yourself WHY you really do something? As in “have a heart to heart with yourself”…. Digging deep down within and just being honest with you, on a few things?

I think we often, WAIT, maybe I should speak for myself here, I think I often assume the best about myself, my intentions and my reason for doing what I do or thinking what I think……

I found myself here just the other night!

It all began with innocent comparison in my mind, Note: comparison is NEVER innocent!  In my mind I was comparing myself to others when it came to a certain subject.

Problem #1: I didn’t catch myself here, in this unwise place of comparison

Which led to Problem #2: I began to find myself comfortable in the Judgment Seat of Christ, judging not only myself but the other people I was comparing myself too.

Which led to Problem #3: I started to condemn myself and let guilt overtake me (not for the comparison. See I had not even realized Problem #1 yet, I had no idea where the “problem” first started) I was condemning myself for not doing what others were doing.

Which honestly led to Problem #4: trying to prove myself to those I was comparing myself too and little did “these people” even know……

………Because it was all in my MIND!

I basically committed 4 sins….in a prettttttttttty short amount of time……

1.       Comparison

2.       Judgment of myself

3.       Judgment of others

4.       Good old fashion pride….

Whoa, whoa, whoa and whoa……

To say I realized in that moment what true grace was all about, is an understatement, I about fell off my chair when I started to write it out on paper (which is often how I work through thoughts swirling around in my brain) and realized how this simple (seemingly innocent thought) turned into a string of SIN, WOW. All I can say is thank you to God for sending His son Jesus to die on a cross for my sins, past, present and future, not because I am even close to perfect, but because of how imperfect I am EVEN when I am “TRYING” my best…

Feel free to write out your “swirlings” (swirling= thoughts in your head) below!

Those sometimes dreaded words “it’s just not the right time”

“Timing is everything”


You always hear that and usually when you do you are in the middle of a situation that you really want to kindly smack the person who says it to you!
But then you find yourself on the other side of “the dreaded phrase” as you comfort a friend on a situation and you hear it coming out of your mouth.
Always easier to “say” than to “hear” but either way it is TRUE…. See King Solomon, who was said to be the wisest man who ever lived talks about this in the book of Ecclesiastes in the Bible in the 3rd chapter:
He says “There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under the heavens:
· A time to be born and a time to die

· A time to plant and a time to pluck up which is planted

· A time to kill and a time to heal

· A time to tear down and a time to build up

· A time to weep and a time to laugh

· A time to mourn and a time to dance

· A time to throw stones and a time to gather stones

· A time to embrace and a time to shun embracing

· A time to search and a time to give up as lost

· A time to keep and a time to throw away

· A time to tear apart and a time to sew together

· A time to be silent and a time to speak

· A time to love and a time to hate

· A time for war and a time for peace”

The Bible says that God has made everything appropriate (some versions of the Bible use the word beautiful instead of appropriate) in it’s time. He has also set eternity in their heart, yet so that man will not find out the work which God has done from the beginning even to the end.
God is working on our behalf as we wait on Him; I stick close to the scripture from Isaiah, chapter 40, verse 31 (this is out of the AMP)
“But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired.
As we wait, let’s mount up near God, let’s hope, expect, look and trust in HIM. Let’s wait expectantly for Him for show up in a big way so that we can tell the story to many, tell a story that was NO OTHER THAN GOD who made “that” happen and all in the most perfect timing!
What is it that you are waiting for? We are all usually waiting on something!

The Father’s Love

To be very honest with you, God usually teaches me what I am writing about, it may be after I write about what ever it is… seems kinda strange to me, but His ways are higher than my ways, and I don’t need to wonder or worry about why, I just need to simply TRUST…
I consider Father God to be like a father to me, I often ask Him advice on every day matters, I go to Him when I am sad and need comforted, I thank Him for all sweet things He does for me and I know no matter what, He is often trying to teach me, guide me, help me to become who He knows I can be.

With all of this said, I sometimes still defy Him, go against what I kinda know He wants me to do and I end up throwing a temper tantrum, like as in crying and screaming (not on the ground but in my heart and sometimes in public). Then I find my way back to His loving arms crying my heart out, as He comforts me, encourages me and undoubtedly reassures me that He loves me no matter what.
He reassures me that He does know best… That I can count on Him, that I can ultimately TRUST Him. The word TRUST is over used a bit, in my mind anyway, but I am kind of the queen of over using words, I mean anyone who knows me knows this about me. So maybe it is my fault, maybe I didn’t really know or fully understand what the word TRUST really meant. Honestly I think I throw it around a lot, maybe I need to stop doing that, either way I know that God taught me a valuable lesson yesterday amongst all my tears and pain, He taught me that He has got me and I need to let go. I need to STOP trying to figure everything out, I need to stay in today, see what He has for me today and not run ahead inside of my head……
I realize a lot of my blogs are written about this similar subject, but isn’t this the journey we are on? As followers of Christ learning to surrender IT ALL to HIM…… Let Him lead our way, direct our path, order our steps. I believe God wants deeper surrender from all of us and I am not sure if we can ever get there fully until Jesus returns and those of us who believe go to heaven. But I do believe that it is part of our journey here on earth. Saved to Surrendered! And sometimes it’s kinda painful, but ALWAYS JOY on the other side…….
Let me know your thoughts…..